First blog
Hi, as the title suggests this is my first time blogging. I am inspired to create my own after reading some of my cousins' blog...namely Rhaudhah and Nadia..probably because they update theirs quite frequently.
I am 30 years of age (yes Rhaudhah..I am making this public. You can believe your eyes ;b) and am currently working as a software engineer. Hate my work environment..new mngt is crappy... and Love to travel(the budget and eco types) and dive. I haven't been to work recently because I have caught, as a cousin calls it, the "chicken-little" virus...aka chicken pox. Yes, I am having it for the first time at 30. When the doctor first confirmed it, I went into panic mode. I started thinking about my mngrs who may start to think I am trying to sabotage the current project, my family members who at risk of getting the virus from me, 2 weeks of being confined to the house...aaargh. Anyway after 1 week, I realised it is not too bad. There are only a couple of spots on my front and back, face and scalp. Initially I thought my whole body and face were going to be covered with spots...even my tongue (which would be very yucky). Thank you, GOD!!!
I am in a dilemma and it concerns my future. I have reached a point where I hate going to work. I hate the office, some of my collegues, the management...although the job itself is o.k. Sometimes I would wake-up and immediately wonder if I could be sick so I can get sick leave. I no longer get a sense of satisfaction from my job. Motivation and morale are at ground zero. My work days are miserable. My wish : to leave before end of april. Problem: do a I get another software engineer job or start a new journey to be a nurse?
Why nurse? Because I love to help people. It gives me a warm feeling when I see the people I help smile in appreciation or when I know that with my help, their day(s) are going to be a little better.The sense of satisfaction I get always make me feel alive. Another reason is my granny. I live with my grandparents. My granny is bedridden and is currently in a hospital. She has been having a fever so I had no choice but to send her there. Seems that her body is not processing food well and on top of that she has some infections in her lungs. She has been in and out of hospitals a number of times and I see how some nurses work. I don't like it. I think elderly patients deserve more care than what they are getting. There are not enough nurses out there who are doing the job out of love. Maybe they do it out of necessity. But I have to admit they are overworked and underpaid. One can tell when a nurse is doing his/her work out of love. It is quite evident. Nursing also provides job security. Nurses are in demand even outside s'pore which means I will be able travel and work.
So, what should I do? What should I do? The closing date for the application for the nursing diploma is...oh my god...TOMORROW!!!!!
Okay....or I can try for the next intake. That should be in September. In the meantime, if I resign, I could go do some travelling. I haven't travelled for a while....but will wait for Granny to be out of hospital first.
Will do some more thinking....
I am 30 years of age (yes Rhaudhah..I am making this public. You can believe your eyes ;b) and am currently working as a software engineer. Hate my work environment..new mngt is crappy... and Love to travel(the budget and eco types) and dive. I haven't been to work recently because I have caught, as a cousin calls it, the "chicken-little" virus...aka chicken pox. Yes, I am having it for the first time at 30. When the doctor first confirmed it, I went into panic mode. I started thinking about my mngrs who may start to think I am trying to sabotage the current project, my family members who at risk of getting the virus from me, 2 weeks of being confined to the house...aaargh. Anyway after 1 week, I realised it is not too bad. There are only a couple of spots on my front and back, face and scalp. Initially I thought my whole body and face were going to be covered with spots...even my tongue (which would be very yucky). Thank you, GOD!!!
I am in a dilemma and it concerns my future. I have reached a point where I hate going to work. I hate the office, some of my collegues, the management...although the job itself is o.k. Sometimes I would wake-up and immediately wonder if I could be sick so I can get sick leave. I no longer get a sense of satisfaction from my job. Motivation and morale are at ground zero. My work days are miserable. My wish : to leave before end of april. Problem: do a I get another software engineer job or start a new journey to be a nurse?
Why nurse? Because I love to help people. It gives me a warm feeling when I see the people I help smile in appreciation or when I know that with my help, their day(s) are going to be a little better.The sense of satisfaction I get always make me feel alive. Another reason is my granny. I live with my grandparents. My granny is bedridden and is currently in a hospital. She has been having a fever so I had no choice but to send her there. Seems that her body is not processing food well and on top of that she has some infections in her lungs. She has been in and out of hospitals a number of times and I see how some nurses work. I don't like it. I think elderly patients deserve more care than what they are getting. There are not enough nurses out there who are doing the job out of love. Maybe they do it out of necessity. But I have to admit they are overworked and underpaid. One can tell when a nurse is doing his/her work out of love. It is quite evident. Nursing also provides job security. Nurses are in demand even outside s'pore which means I will be able travel and work.
So, what should I do? What should I do? The closing date for the application for the nursing diploma is...oh my god...TOMORROW!!!!!
Okay....or I can try for the next intake. That should be in September. In the meantime, if I resign, I could go do some travelling. I haven't travelled for a while....but will wait for Granny to be out of hospital first.
Will do some more thinking....
posted by Jules @ 12:33 AM
2 Comments:
At 2:01 AM,
Anonymous said…
Hai Kak Ana, I am glad you are blogging. Join the fun! hehe. Anyway, about changing your job, I think you should think over it again and again.. You must know that both helping people as well as holding a well-paid job are necessary. It is normal for anybody to switch job when they feel bored and self satisfation equals to zero.For you,it is critical for you to weigh all aspects of the future jobs and compare them to the present. If your priority is to fulfil your satisfaction to helping others(which you can't in the present job) than you can continue. However, you must know that your interest in nursing mustn't be short-lived. I have said whatever is necessary. Most important is yourself. :)
At 12:25 AM,
Jules said…
ya..you are right. I don't deny the importance of money. The fact that I am still only considering nursing is because of money issue. In s'pore nurses are paid quite low despite being loaded with heavy responsibilities. But I have figured out some ways to get around it. The thing is, I tried to work just for money and it doesn't work for me. I end up feeling very depressed...very "dead". As you know, I spend most of my waking hours at work so if it doesn't give me any satisfaction then it becomes a burden/a problem. So I feel that it is important that I do what I enjoy and try and earn $$ while doing it as oppose to doing something that makes me unhappy but gives me money. I don't want to grow old and regret doing what I did...or rather not doing what I think I should have done. I want to do more meaningful stuffs with my life. I want to grow old and have interesting stories to tell.
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