Ridiculously humid!!

Oh my god! The weather is horribly hot and humid! I find myself wanting to shower more than twice a day. Granny's home and I find her irresistable so I kept going into her room and giving her kisses. I do think my chicken littles are no longer contagious.

Sad news:
1/ I start work this Thurs. Medical leave over :(
2/ I haven't decided what to do with my future. I am suppose to do some thinking but the weather is just so no right for "thinking sessions".

My ciken "littles"

ok, my chicken littles are starting to dry up. Some scabs have actually dropped off. No permanent damage done...i think. After more than a week being stuck at home, I am officially bored. Can't wait to go out. Oh ya, my granny could be home later today which would be really cool! Miss her lots. I am really proud of my brother these 2 weeks. He has shown to be a responsible and dependable person handling all of granny's hospitalisation matters and staying by her side as much as he could. If you are reading this, THANK YOU BRO!! I don't know what I would do without you :)
Ok am thinking dunkin donuts in larkin...A&W in angsana(??)...movies in city square...meal at chismosa where one can get fake(non-alcoholic) margaritas and sherry temples...oh and I so want to go on a holiday...diving...
and yes...the cousins had planned to go disturb nadia at her workplace...the plan has yet to be executed. Rhaudhah...!!!!!!! Plan plz...

My Granny

I love my grandparents very much. To me they are more parents than my own parents coz the latter are workaholics so I don't see them much. My granny is now bed-ridden. She had a fall which broke her left leg and another which damaged her left eyes. She was not the same after the 2nd fall. She became quiet and slept most of the time. Soon she became weaker and eventually, bed-ridden. I regret not anticipating this.
Before my family engaged a domestic helper, I was her main care-giver. I bath, fed and cleaned her. And I feel good doing it. Seeing her the way she is now, I am overwhelmed with regret. I regret not taking her out for picnics, not taking her on my overseas travel...not spending more time with her. I regret those times when I was angry at her and raised my voice. It is all too late now. Now all I can do is make her as comfortable as possible. Now she doesn't recognise me and is not communicative. I miss her...a lot and I always cry when I think of her. But I learnt my lesson and I now try to do those things that I regret not doing with my granny with my granddad.

I think I have always had a soft spot for elderly folks. Especially those who are unfortunate. I remember one time when I was around 5 years of age, my granny took me to the market. I was holding her hand. Along the way, I saw this old chinese woman who walked with a bend and carried plastic bags, whick looked too heavy for her, in each hand. I felt so sorry for her. At that moment I told myself, "I'll never let my granny and my grandad go through what she is going through". I cannot forget this incident. Till today, my heart would ache eveytime I see old folks carrying heavy groceries or going through garbage in search for recycleable stuffs or being forsaken by their family. These people deserve better. People tend to care for kids and neglect old folks. And that, to me, is sad...

First blog

Hi, as the title suggests this is my first time blogging. I am inspired to create my own after reading some of my cousins' blog...namely Rhaudhah and Nadia..probably because they update theirs quite frequently.
I am 30 years of age (yes Rhaudhah..I am making this public. You can believe your eyes ;b) and am currently working as a software engineer. Hate my work environment..new mngt is crappy... and Love to travel(the budget and eco types) and dive. I haven't been to work recently because I have caught, as a cousin calls it, the "chicken-little" virus...aka chicken pox. Yes, I am having it for the first time at 30. When the doctor first confirmed it, I went into panic mode. I started thinking about my mngrs who may start to think I am trying to sabotage the current project, my family members who at risk of getting the virus from me, 2 weeks of being confined to the house...aaargh. Anyway after 1 week, I realised it is not too bad. There are only a couple of spots on my front and back, face and scalp. Initially I thought my whole body and face were going to be covered with spots...even my tongue (which would be very yucky). Thank you, GOD!!!
I am in a dilemma and it concerns my future. I have reached a point where I hate going to work. I hate the office, some of my collegues, the management...although the job itself is o.k. Sometimes I would wake-up and immediately wonder if I could be sick so I can get sick leave. I no longer get a sense of satisfaction from my job. Motivation and morale are at ground zero. My work days are miserable. My wish : to leave before end of april. Problem: do a I get another software engineer job or start a new journey to be a nurse?
Why nurse? Because I love to help people. It gives me a warm feeling when I see the people I help smile in appreciation or when I know that with my help, their day(s) are going to be a little better.The sense of satisfaction I get always make me feel alive. Another reason is my granny. I live with my grandparents. My granny is bedridden and is currently in a hospital. She has been having a fever so I had no choice but to send her there. Seems that her body is not processing food well and on top of that she has some infections in her lungs. She has been in and out of hospitals a number of times and I see how some nurses work. I don't like it. I think elderly patients deserve more care than what they are getting. There are not enough nurses out there who are doing the job out of love. Maybe they do it out of necessity. But I have to admit they are overworked and underpaid. One can tell when a nurse is doing his/her work out of love. It is quite evident. Nursing also provides job security. Nurses are in demand even outside s'pore which means I will be able travel and work.
So, what should I do? What should I do? The closing date for the application for the nursing diploma is...oh my god...TOMORROW!!!!!
Okay....or I can try for the next intake. That should be in September. In the meantime, if I resign, I could go do some travelling. I haven't travelled for a while....but will wait for Granny to be out of hospital first.

Will do some more thinking....